MAgic a way of Life?

He Ran To me

2008-02-19T21:41:00.004+08:00

This is a milestone in my life. On Sunday during Service, felt so in love. But during ministry, all the defences in my broke loose, and out came torrents of tears. Tears of Longing, Tears of dryness, tears of love. I missed him so much, but HE Missed me even more !!! Each time i tried to sing, i just kept crying crying and all in such deep sorrow. All the days that i've ran away from him, all the days that i felts so dry and lonely. He was right there waiting for me!!!

that is why i will be undergoing a 40 days fast from tv and psp and all such entertainment...

loved all the songs today too... it was away from all our normal happy jumpity kinda songs, but songs of love, longing and intimacy with HIM.

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

Refrain

And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

Refrain

I’d stay in the garden with Him
Though the night around me be falling,
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling.

Failing again and again

2008-01-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

Super super Tired of takin my driving tests over and over again.. they seem to never end, and worse of all, EVERY1 is asking..
i'm sure out of concern.. but its so painful to keep failing over and over again.

To think that most ppl i know have taken later than me, and passed...
why am i still stuck here ??? It has been a yr since i started my driving.
and still i'm here, chances have passed , 3 times it hit me right in the head.
who said the first cut is the deepest ? the 3rd hurts most, cause it hurts right where the wound was
pain pain why so deep you sting ?
comfort to heal the pain, where can i go but from where i first starteth.

Back to the Start.
Back to the Father.

framed

2007-11-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

How is it that i'm always framed.
My father thinks that everytime i use the com i destroy it.Somehow this com tries to dog me by having bugs after i use it. and all i do is just surfing. somehow the stupid network will dc , and work fine later.

Worse of all just minutes ago, it happened network down, so i tried to call up the helpline, then low batt.... POP straightaway thinks i did .. ITS ALL my fault...

i dont care, i'm gonna save up alot of money and go buy myself a laptop so that i dont have to bother him about anything anymore.

Crappified.

2007-10-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

Feeling empty and crappified now.
sucky things have happened to me in my office because of the flying MonkeY.

What is a flying monkey ???

Brucophalus monkfolious

It is a mammal that is found only in the deepest area of a congrete jungle in the northern parts of singapore, particularly near khatib. It has also been seen whizzing about in Sengkang.

It has sometimes been mistaken for Mr Incredible. this explains why It is sometimes have been seen trying to fly.Though it looks quite capable of flying, it cannot actually fly. This because, after years of staying behind a desk, and the evolutionof its eating habits,it has developed a great amount of lipids. It instead Glides on the updrafts on other peoples work with the use of a few flaps of skin in between its legs.

Just a few brief description.

Failing

2007-10-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

Cars zooming pass my eyes,
My Heart aches and pains,
How you've wasted so long,
Others have gone pass me,

Time has flown by,
How can i still stay where i am

I'm back

2007-10-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

After going round the world, [literally] i've come back to this crazy lil upside down world of mine

It has been a year since i've shifted my blog, and a year since i've started driving.

just failed my 2nd attempt, and i'm about to go crazy. now wad to do ???
lol
aniwae just a lil update on my life,
after my Jiang Xi stint, i went on a trip to shen yang to teach magic, followed by my enlistment to Army, where i went through bmt. Following which i went to signals... aniwae to cut a long story short refer here.

So now here i am back.

Loving God.

2006-07-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

Just Got back from Church Prayer meeting.
Ever since i got back, I 've been feeling very very far away from God. It felt like God was in China and I in Singapore. So very far away. Try as i might, repent from what ever sin, fasting...
Today, during the meeting, Pst Melvin asked anyone who wanted a fresh baptism of the holy spirit to come down. I went. I was HUNGRY, I WANTED, I THRIST, i needed HIM.
That was when, a pastor came, he prayed that the stone of my life be rolled away.

Immediately i felt it, the presence, the love, the embrace.

How great is our God.

What more can i say ?

Frus

2006-07-19T14:18:00.000+08:00

Tp policy is so screwy.... I was doing my work halfway when i tried to save... but i realised taht you cnat save anything on the school com! not even for a while. worse of all. all my documents that i open from my hard drive are all READ only !
How are we supposed to do our work ! not only that they go and disable all the Remove hardware option on all the PC, so you just pull it out.
Crayz ppl

2006-07-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hahaha I didnt even bother to tell them abt my luggage, i just tried my luck and hopefully dont get caught.. hahahahah
Just got back from having dinner w some church friends..
Madness. loving every day and every second.

I'm BACK!!!!

2006-07-16T07:58:00.000+08:00

I'm Back!!!! finally reached DSg today came back togetehr with the singapore team this mornoing, my house is so lovely..... miss it so much... i was just thinking when will i get a chance to go back ?
Shanghai was tiring but fun... R&R was only 1 day, fast and furious super shiong.. hahahaha.. finally i'm able to acess my own blog.. hahahah went to shanghai with 27 kg, 7 kg overweight, and when i left Shanghai it was 37kg.. madness.. sigh.... many many presents !!!! wahhaha so happy !
ok i need to go bathe and sleep ....
zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Shopping !!!!

2006-07-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

Bought today,
1 Jesus Shirt- street styled- 60 rmb
1 mp3 mobile speaker -60rmb
1 Street doll dunno how to describe-50 rmb
1 Spongebob Scotch Tape-20 Rmb
2 blouses for gramps-70 rmb
3 Parker pen - 36rmb ea-108

overall expenditure for today, way too much
300 bucks

will need to cut down... sighz..

in Nanchang

2006-07-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

Hi i'm now in the capital,
This time i'm staying at a much better hotel.
the last time i was here i was quite stubborn and chose to find my own hotel it was 160 a night and was too near the city.
This time i managed to get a friend to help me book, so he helped me get a hotel quite far away from the city, how much ?
150 RMB with a com in the room.

The train here was terrible, IT was freakingly hot and crowded. And worse of all i was there with the Lugagges.
Thank God for the other guy who came here with me.

It was madness.. it was so hot that we were literally drenched.
Couldn't take it. So we dropped off the train eveenthough 15 minutes later we would reach the station but we couldn't take it anymore.
Me and kenny were having fainting spells, It was just horrendous.

Upon getting down we got a cab to go to the capital hotel, we didn't realli bargain since it was 100 rmb, didnt care too hot.. it was not very ex either. so dont care liao.
turned out the guy was very nice to us, told us how much it was etc..

so i'm in my hotel room now blogging away..
i bet kennysia would go mad if he found out that there are actually hotels who actually have a coms in their rooms with harddisk... wahahaha

so tml morning i will be flying off , wil have rush thenn

i am quite sad taht i have left xingan in such a hurry, but i need to.. sighz...

o btw, the hotel is very good, not some lok kok hotel it has GLASS basin and Glass stuff. its the best room around.. kekekeke
ciao !
have to go and bathe liao SUPER SWEATY...

Leaving on a jet Plane... AGAIN

2006-07-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

ok i have just confirmed my flight to shanghai, wow its really a whirlwind, just confirmed and the moment i'm finished i just fly away.
In a way i feel quite bad, because its like slapping ur as and moving on.
But... i need to leave asap to do my visa, and cos its cheaper also. alotof factors.. kekeke
so to summarize my trip to XinGan, JiangXi,
it has been quite bumpy, and dusty and dirty...
but it has enabled me to seem a bigger world, a world where big breaks are so hard to come by.
A land of Opportunity ,Grabbers.

Experiment wise, allof our results were very inconclusive and mixed up.
not too mention VERY inaccurate
Time has past quite quickly. and sadly it is time for me to go..
ok i'm abit happy also la..
XD

I'm quite sad i couldn't keep blogging everyday cos i cants ee wad i'm typing so dats quite sian..
and i'm quite tired, havent really slept well these few days

so from here i will be going to the capital staying there for a night and the next morning i will leave for shanghai, where i willl stay until the 16th.. then i will come back to SG!
hopefully can change the flight time, to allow me to come back abit earlier

eagerly awaiting me - Shanghai

Leaving on a jet Plane... AGAIN

2006-07-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

Update

2006-06-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hi 10 more days till i go to shanghai. wow. alot of things have happened, i have gone to the capital nanchang to do some shopping. met soem cool dudes over there. qte fun and everything, not sure how long more i can conitnue doing this. I am not realli in the mood of blogging now, bcos of sumthing that had happened just now. still in the midst of calming myself down. so pls be praying for me, MORE PATIENCE and SELFCONTROL. realli need it thanks.

Sunday

2006-06-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Today,
Woke up late missed the 1st sevice so went for teh 2nd one @2pm instead. so i had a hot lunch.. and walked down the hot hill to stand in the Hot sun, and chased after the Hot bus, only to be rejected. So i had to take a hot 3wheeled taxi to the laundrette. to wash my hot and stinky clothes
So i took another "cab" down to the church 1 rmb, 20cts . upon reaching tha church i was abit overwhelmed by the humid and stench of dired up spit. sigh.. service was qte gd . just that i couldnt cathce the do re me thingy. and kept singing off beat etc... would love hillsongs anitime man..
sigh.. so after taht went down to getr some stamp ink. bought a chinese stamp w my name all cina-lified.. so went to teh back took up sime $$$ and was qte shocked to see people whip out thousands of dollars wfrom their wallets la..
i was like shocked..
all these things i've been doing liek bringing less $$$ and these ppl are walking w $$$ srticking outta their pockets... sighz..
so went to my fav coffee hse and ordered a spaghetti w blackpepper beef
it came w a soup. "corn soup". terribly aweful. it had a overpowering sweetness, and had a sourish tinge. and lotsa bits of cucumber floating abt...
den the spaghetti was spaghetti NOT el-dente. and SIRFRIED W BALCK PEPPER W CHILLI.. sigh..
however the watermelon juice was chilled watermelon. so no irritating ice.. etc..
den i had a cup of jasmine tea, and sat there the whole evening reading a bk called THE HOLY BIBLE. and sat ther chillin out w God. nice time..

Ok i gtg now.. i have missed 12 mins of Brasil vs Australia Time. + the 5 mins i need to walk home Oh No!!!! ok bb.... feel free to email me any comments....

btw, i'll be back on the 16th of July !!!!!
yeha!!!!

Tired

2006-06-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

Went shopping today spent abt 150 rmb, dats qte alot even for me. bought something at 50 rmb, musical instruments i wanna use for magic, aniwae, i think i should have haggled abit more for dat. Silly me. SIgh.. aniwae, after that went to wash ma hair at 10 rmb, which is abt 2 sgd, it included a hair massage, arm amassage and neck massage, even washing the hair i was lying down la.. qte shiok. not reclined, but Laid down like on a bed... kekeke... aniwae, bought a map of china togetehr w some groceries, and a belt for me self, went looking for clothes for my grands and my mum, but it was super irritating w all the salesperson tailing you like irritating flies, and keep asking you to buy this buy that, i just wanna shop ALONE!!!
sighz..
o ya went ot a coffee house to chill out and read The Bait of Satan by John Bevere.
was quite fun, after that came back to find kenny downloading movies like mad. like 30 plus movies. all bcos he bought a new portable hard disk, hooha.. *shrugs
aniwae. yea. no comments.

So finally after the whole day i'm finally able to use the com to watch ma fav, inuyasha and other nice movies that i downloaded on ma own. bleaH! hahahaha
abit high...

eagerly awaiting this weeks sermon ....

叔公

2006-06-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

Ok I cant continue the day without first doing this.

Since young I have disliked Chinese, even before I knew what Chinese was.
My mum told me that there was once someone called our house, and I quickly picked it up. And so the caller asked,”Is this a Chinese family ?”
And Simple minded me answered instantly ,”YES”
Luckily my mum was nearby and saw me in my ate,pt of picking up the phone and took away from me. My thinking was since we speak English, we are English speaking therefore we are English.. wahaha
Aniwae, as I grew up I slowly disliked Chinese and the teachers, balding ones, sissified ones, the ones that try to bite of your head.. ALL of them..

Then my Grand Uncle，叔公，gave me tuition, My叔公having been Chinese educated, and being a chinese teacher, and even having participated in the hock lee riots.. [cool...]
I think he felt that it was very important that as the eldest son of the Lim family I had to know chinese. So叔公taught a very defiant and spoilt brat. ME. So much so that one day, 叔公caned me. I mean caning was no biggy, butfor a 50 plus elderly to be caning me, I should be ashamed. 叔公was so troubled that he spent a sleepless night. I mean, it was not so much as a LEARNING chinese thingy, it was this syndrome, banana syndrome, losing your heritage. Then he contracted cancer and had to stop tuition. After it was cured叔公continued the tuition and taught me more symbolic stuff, like calligraphy. Man I was so interested in that, and after that followed up by my grandaunt’s nice dinner. It was nice.
Even as I was in boys town I would always go and visit him and he and叔婆would tell me about how I ws growing up and needed to take care of myself. I even remember once walking along a tree shaded path and slowly talking about how I needed to be good and listen to my folks.

Then cancer crept back in and before long it slowly stole him away. Slowly everyone knew it was time and spent more time with him.

One Day someone in my Family [like uncle etc..] suggested we spend reunion dinner with叔公. The mood was solemm and sad. He looked very happy and even gave a victory sign as we were taking pictures. But still there was a blank look in his eyes.

On chinese New year morning, we all overslept, but surprisingly no one blamed anyone at all. Instead we went on like nothing happened. By the time we reached my grandmas place it was about noon. Just as we were eating there was a call telling us that叔公was not going to make it and so all the adults left for his Place.

A few minutes later, The adults called us up and asked us to take down the Red Cloth.

So that chinese new year our whole family spent it helping my 叔婆 with the funeral.
They told me that when they brought him down in his rocking chair it looked like he feel asleep, all peaceful and serene.

What really surprised me was that it was a Christian Funeral. Halleluia!
On the last day as the pastor was giving a testimony on my 叔公. I was Stunned
When the pastor went to visit 叔公, he said,”我要吃团圆饭”
And My Good Heavenly father allowed him to spend it with all of us.

So why am I writing about 叔公 ? Is a mere flashback of him ?

No.

I am writing this because if not for him , I would not be here in China and i can only thank God for him. I can also rejoice in the fact that when I move on, I will be able to see him just like all those who have fallen asleep in the Promised Land.

I thank God for my 叔公

aiyo...

2006-06-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

sigh.. crappy blogspot lost my post .. sighz.. sian..
aniwae,. today found a very good singer patrice reynolds, she does christian R&B. Found it on a chinese website to download songs. den i saw the song names like In His name, ezekiel 16.. and i was like what ! wow!!! really shocked and after listening to it, i'm determined to go back to Sg and buy the cd. thats the least i can do to support such a good artiste.. very good..
Also watched a very nice show called 电车男. very nice. abit sappy , but it talks abt this techno anime geek in Jappan taht falls in love with this high class ladyt etc.. hahah qte funny
aLso i just realised that my hard disk not enough space liao lo.. chia lat sia.. sigh...
1 month left!!!! yeah.... time seems to be slowing down and crawling liao lo.. siogh... ok.. gtg tml going to get my 1 Gb mp3!!!! ciao !

updates

2006-06-04T11:33:00.000+08:00

So sorry i havent been able to update my blog... siggh.. yea.. today i wanna confess abt some stuff...
ell, i've been here for close to 7 weeks, and have beeen watching some real good movies here. FOC courtesy of the internet.. yea...
i'm quite clueless abt what to write anymore. its very boring here.. but thank god for e movies.. yea...

达芬奇密码

2006-05-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

just finished watchin davince code online, did want to help him get richer, so decided to get it free instead also, managed to watch Incredibles...
Davinci code was a good show of FICTION. it was a whole lotta crap, like how jesus is human and had never resurrected.. i mean yea rite.. how can 1 author convince so many people, when decades of theologians have proved unsucessful to prove that jesus is not God?? madness.. its like terrible...
That The starof David is actually a symbol for sex.. wth.. i could go on... but its madnesss... anyway, if u are so desperate to watcha movie pls go buy incredibles.. very nice.

I Mean, it makes me feel all warm and fssy inside.
SO many ties we try to do things on our, own thinking that we are all we need.
But like it or not, we need God. dan Brown will even go to the extend of saying that there is No God...

Many people have asked me what is so gd abt being a christian.[most of teh christians here are old ppl, so they think they are scared of dying etc..
] i gave them all textbook answers so much so that i'm not even convinced myself ?
What makes me a christian ?
issit because i said the siners prayer?
or because i go church every sunday ?
Or maybe because i know ppl who are christian..
No.
I am a christian only because i'm unworthy.
unworthy ?
Yes, its like you are a prisoner, on death row.
Den the President comes to your cell and unlocks you personally,
And sets you free...

I like being a christian, because i am in love with a God,
Someone, who is there for me, who gives me the strength to see the invisble.

Who are you in love with ?

chop chop.

2006-05-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

Wow, This is indeed very fast , this is already the start of the 6th week, It also signal s the Midway point of my stay in Jiangxi, 6 more weeks of attachment, and 6 weeks of past, that has blown past me faster than typhoon Chanchu.
man.. pls look@ what time i'm doing this, madness..
and i'm still in the factory!
lolx
recently neglected e blog qte abit, cos work starting to pile up. i have to experminents evreyday , so if u see me online, and mesage and i nv reply, pls forgive muar, i'm doing work, juyst bcos i'm online doesn't mean i'm always der. so very paiseh.
thank God, i'm able to sleep in late and have to come to work only @ 2 pm. to whic h i have the key now. so no more cyber cafe. cheaper too..
having some shitty problems with e other guy that cmae w me.
talk abt loving the unlovable, wow.
getting qte hard, as he's very stubborn and always right.. sigh..

on the other hand my cam is getting cranky, so need to find out wads wrong w it. also i'm gettin very sleepy, and tired. bye.,
o yah went fishing caught 20 lil fishies that were put in batter and deep fried.
shiok. but small..
ciao... hpe to update soon.. lolx...
ciao !
btw the streetlamps go out @ 1230.. bye !
~zoom.

chop chop.

2006-05-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

Reflection

2006-05-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

It has come to my attention that i've been here close to a month liao,
so has my chinese improved ? i think so, i think i also kena the slang liao sia.... lol. aniwae, i think an update on my life here is long overdue, the routine so far has been to spend as much time online as possible, this is indeed qte emotionally draining not to forget also sleeping time. working time has also changed , in the sense dat in a yr, it changes qte a bit, used to be 8-12, 1:30-5:30, now its 7:30-11:30 and 2:00-6:00, so yea.. luch is very rushed, my hand is also healing fast, but still on a cast until it heals.

Church is also a funny case. I was recently reminded by ma Pst. What is church??? is it a place ? or a congregation of people ? Why are am making a 5 hr journey every week that is both $$$ and tiring?
Sadly, i forgot all abt the reasons, it is like you forget the main reaaason behond everythng, like christmas, IT IS ABT GOD...
i was so caught up by the act of going to church, that I forgot why i was going in the first place, all i knew was that i needed to go. How wrong, i needed to SEE god, not to go to a Ancient Building. God is where I am. Thank God, i managed to find a church OPPOSITE MY HSE!!!!.. wow!
But which brings me to my other Sad point, when they found out i was Christian, tey were qte amazed that i was cos to them only old women belief in God, bcos they arre worried abt dying. So i thought ,"HOW WRONG!!!!" and i explained and told them how God has changed my life, and i even had the opportunity of sing songs to them :@!!!! wow, indeed i see what a blessing it is ! How great thou art !!!! wow!
and i want to THANK GOD FOR THAT! in fact, i have had so many people saying that they would like to see, Indeed the harvest is plentiful and the workers few.

How can you bring more ppl to church ???

excited.

Nice meal

2006-05-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Had rabbit meat just now, very hot and spicy, steweed with cinnamon
very nice like mutton, qte tough though but very nice, had a coule of drinks, by the way, i'm now called
小林... wahahah....... qte seh~ now sia.. lol..
ok gtg nowz..
bye

angry words

2006-05-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

how dare you!
if my sleeping late is affecting my work i dont mind. you wanna sleep early that your problem, dont impose you habits on me! dont come giving me bed times etc, i wanna watc the telly i w ill do so. if it disturbs your sleeping boo hoo... so sad... too bad ! tell me i'll bring the vol down! dont come and tell me whatta do. its notlike i'm getting paid etc, even if you are my supervisor [which you are not] who are you to tell me how to live ??? of course sleeping early is gd and all that, but tell me what to do ! i'm not like not paying etc, i pay rent for a shit hole, and i need to listen to your shit ! come on! we are grown-ups, dont treat us like some lil kiddies. so pissed.

2006-05-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

do a work of transformation
how can we transform to be a conqueror ?
1. need o accept god s perceeption
e lord is with yopu , mighty warrior, [how am i a mighty warrior ?]
false beliefs of our lifes
feel that god has abandoned him
gideon was treshing wheat in a WINE PRESS!!! (doing wrong thing at wrong place, due to opression.)
aim to please ppl. no peace.
scared til lao sai lao jio..... lol

2. god's purity
3. anointed w god's power through us.
i need the holyspirit where i am !!! god where are you ???, i got no strength !
i need your strength !
dont know why...
brough tback to the case of the xbox 360, eventhough i did not feel a "sensation" i did it, and even though the world jeered, i did it, sometimes i regret buti know it is right. dont now e\why im doing this . living here is qte unbearable, just dont feel enough of HIM. where are you ? that i may find you. pplease.

sigh..
living with kenny is gettin qte unbeareable, he black face la, sumtimes like tak shiok. qte crappy like he will gossip abt me while i'm sleeping to the other room mate, den will like be unhappy in the morning, my, whast have i gotten myself into ?
i'm looking forward to the best part of my stay here, the end. when i can go to shanghai... sighz...

2 weeks liao.

2006-04-29T11:25:00.003+08:00

wow, timew indeed flies super fast la, not dat i dont want that to happen,
sigh. i wish i could just wake up and find myself in my big and comfy bed once again,
also saw a blog of DanK's indeed am qte saddened at the recent case of finger pointing. If you ask , he say dont have, den dont have! stop gossipping, will blog more soon.. bb! lunch time
must rush.. wahahaha
o btw, the pics are of my hand and the botak guy is my sup , or so they saay fornow....

2 weeks liao.

2006-04-29T11:25:00.002+08:00

2 weeks liao.

2006-04-29T11:25:00.001+08:00

2 weeks liao.

2006-04-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

day 11.

2006-04-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

reachin 2 wks laio.
having some probs w kenny.
elections comin!!!
have fun !!!

More pics

2006-04-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

2006-04-26T15:39:00.000+08:00

hope this works.. met this cute lil boy that on the train vecute. soso heres my puffed up hand.. lol.. aniwae, ya.. hope to have more pics up soon! btw the milk here is oso qte funky.. lol.. had cooky today, went late for lunch, missed out on 1 dish. here they super rush, only when eating and going home,
上工一条虫，
下工一条龙

lol. yupz... hahaha have fun..

duno what to write....

2006-04-26T11:24:00.000+08:00

i shall be a gd boy and listen to my mummie, and blog and entry.. lol...
i am planning to go to shanghai during the mayday hols, to visit sum frens and dad's fren. also, the air here is getting warm, rain like siao yesterday, monsoon season now...
also thinking whether or not to tell my ah ma of my hand, on one ghand i dun wanna keep anything from her, on the otehr, telling her will make her worry unecessarily, esp since her health not good, so... feel bad, esp since i scared later i blurt out etc... sigh.. what to do... summore i've just started so.. i have qte abit more time left to do this, so if i tell her now, she'll worry abt it for 11 WKS! no . can t tell her.. dun lie, by saying i sprained my wrist.. not gd...
so i will not tell her. so pls help me keep a secret. lol.

happy

2006-04-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

just finished toking to my folks on msn using the camera and mic and speaker.. lol.. very fun.. here oso 2yuan /hr, summore its abt .2sgd...
very fun...

limp-wristed

2006-04-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

hhah limpwristed me
broke my wrist bone on sunday , on e way to church, wow, cant believe i fractured it. sigh... not dat pain but its the planks dat are here that are sucha pain... lol.. sigh... aniwae, i'm at a cafe noww, using the net, qte gd, have cam, mic and headphones.. not bad @ all...

2006-04-22T14:51:00.000+08:00

Micheal Buble
Home
Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

testin out

2006-04-21T09:26:00.002+08:00

testin out

2006-04-21T09:26:00.001+08:00

testin out

2006-04-21T09:26:00.000+08:00

will this work >?

day 5 rewritten

2006-04-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

sigh. had to rewrite teh Operating system here is all in chinese, have to gues abit sometimes.. lol...
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白云机场的竹林

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白云己场的tower? lolx

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酒店的天花板

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在后面的是小李姐姐，是她带我们去逛街。

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自己读吧！！！

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谁要吃北京鸭？？？这是当我走回家的时后拍的。

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虾婆。在广周拍的。灰色的，不敢吃。

不多说了，以后在放吧。。。。。

到了江西

2006-04-18T09:36:00.000+08:00

i'min jiangxi now, its qte cold esp in the night, the trip was very fun i dodn't bring my card reader so i cant upload e pics yet,The place here is good, abit better than what i expoected but the living conditions is abit dirty, [and my mum says i'm dirty] lol. so the food is cheap and the temp cold,
Culture shock is nt that bad got over it very quickly, on th etop of the list is how i saw an old lady chang her shirt (w/o) ani bra on in the arrival hall @ guangzhou.
yep, passed a couple of shops seeliing dog meat, when out foir dinner with my supervisor Mr Xu chang yesterday, love the temp, and the blankets are so toasty and warm! love it.
how weve as i said the floor no tiles, bare cement, its not even those even and nice types ok. some of my to-buy list are ,
Dettol
brush
soap powder,
scourer
bleach,
mop
lo... hope you get what i mean.. hahaha
the factory has a funky smell, i think from the lack of proper ventilation ba.

on the way here in de car, i was discussing with the guy incharge of public relations abt teh similarities btw china and Sg, and we identified something political, inboth countries, we practice a one party policy, ;D
wahahah, [go figure]
aparently here, i cant even look at blogs, it's a phenomenon claled the gret firewall of china, how everything here is filtered to prevent unwanted and unhealthy stuff from coming in, [trying to be politically correct here, dont wanna offend the gov here manz..]
ok gtg nowz, must let the other guy use liao.. ciao !

abit of culture shock liao. lolx

2006-04-16T07:52:00.000+08:00

haha as in my tag, i'm now in the waiting hall,
aniwae, i'm qte shocked at the culture liao, but i think not as much.. lol,, like the language, the way they do stuff, like all of sudden my queue from 2 lane became 1 lane on its own la, and then the way they do stuff so kiasu and Suaku la. so hmmm... lol. so i will continue to blog soon Hopefully Guangzhou has as good as a service as singapore [keeping my fingers twisted].

Ok cya soon! e next time i blog will be from People's Republic of China !!!!

bye

2006-04-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

leaving today, in 2 hrs time. have fun every1 !!!
havin a spliting headache

Bye,

2006-04-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

leaving in 1 dyas time.. wow it has been relali fast, so yep. update Mr shar, lolx.. hahah back to packing !!!
reealloi no time sia...

stressed.

2006-04-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

still packing. but finishing up liao. will finish packing it up by tonight
however abit cheesed off today, whne i realised that some of my dealings have not be done to as what i wanted to be. infact, feel abit cheated by some stuff now. cant say now lolx. [later kena sue... ] ok gtg l=nowz.. gtg and continue packing.

Confessions of a Procrastinator.

2006-04-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

Confessions
Being yourself. OK
These are exciting days i'm in, at the same tiem i am so stretched.
I ask for Prayer from fellow Brothers and sisters,
Instead of lamenting of how bad my schedule is and whine abt the many things to do. I will SUMO my way thru.. lol. Suck it Up and Move On.
At the same time i do not want to deny my feelings,
What am i writing abt ?
Today was really temopted to throw in the towel,
Preparing a Magical item is not all fun and dazzle.
Sometimes, ifeel very discouraged. But i believe that God has given me Talents, and i need to use and multiply them lest its taken away.
So pls remember to pray for , esp my boys[i hope they are reading this.Bleah...]
Whne i am on Stage i want to give it my all, But i realise that Sometimes i need to leave it aside and commit to God.

Also i feel that i'm really running outta time, so i need chop chop finish this and gO pack my Bags, I have so many things to do so lil time, Lesson ??? DONT PROCRASTINATE!!!!!
wow.. pk.. must go back to my rushy and tight schedule. So if i'm very uptight and High-string, pls forgive me.[nervous breakdowning ??]

I thank God that i am even able to Rush and esperience a tight schedule, Bcos it shows that I am still alive and Have Time to feel stressed.

Update on last sunday,

2006-04-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

Oh ya. I was just reminded that I blogged abt my mum coming to church ?
She did not come as her friend could not come and [her fren cant wake up..] lol..
But I believe that it was because I did not pray and pray adequately for Her friend and my Mum.
So I’m believing God for this Sunday. But I Thank god, that her friend’s son came on the same sunday , and gave his life to God, Praise God.
That’s why this week I’m on Daniel fast and praying for them.

On the other hand I was quite disturbed, when i came across this ah beng vs Bhrangra audio. Heard from my bro that it was hilarious, but he warned me that there was vulgarities.[ So I’m confessing, that I shouldn’t but I did. Need to repent. ]
While hearing it, I could not imagine how one can find humour in verbally abusing a Indian person just because he is a foreigner.[I also suspect it was a prank call]. But I cant understand why he had to curse his whole family. Do these people derive some kind of pleasure from just subjecting these poor foreigners to such insults?
And then the guy threaten to involve the cops and demand that he apologise. Does he suffer from inferior complex? So badly that he need to get acknowledgment like that?
Sigh… summore those racist blogger kena rotan and jail, don’t such pranksters deserve the same punishment too ? if not worse. Sigh…

It is indeed sad, but true.

We live in a decaying society.

How then Shall we live ???

5 more days

Thanksgiving.

2006-04-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

wow!
God is really NO man's Deptors,
meaning whatever you give to him he will give you EVEN MORE!!!

really feel very blessed, why, cos recently alot of ppl have been blessing me with angpows. But Because of cash flow problems i've been having i had to use it in advance first, also had to give sum to mum to pay some really overdue bills. So after paying i had really not enough money la. like 300 ?
SO when tithing do i tithe the Big Amt b4 bills ? or what i'm left the 300+ ???

So i just tooka step of faith [trust me it was REALLY PAINFUL.] and tithe the BIG $$$.

So what abt it ?

Well i've just realised that i need to pay qte ab it this week. For my Air ticket to china abt $300. Which i did not have. So i really had no clue abt what to do. all i knew was that
28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.
Romans8:28-29
so i just trusted that God is in control.

Well today, i was blessed by a relative who gave me qte abit of $$$$ will not tell you how much :P but It is more that enough for the airticket payment.
Praise God so much that he Is Jehovah Jireh My Provider.
He is more than enough for me.

I am just overwhelmed by his blessing in my life
Psalm 121
A song of ascents.
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

So i encourage you Trust God for Miracles!

Miracles.

2006-04-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

Wow, My GOd is an Awesome God,
Besides blessing me with such a good life, today i just recieved word that i can pay for my trip to china using my Edusave, (but dunnno inside got how much wor...)
ALso i'm bringing my mum to church tml ! thank god, and i will update you guys immediately on the out coem tml getting late must go and prepare for the bountiful harvest tml morning !!!

Conquerers

2006-04-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

Just something i learnt today from the leaders meeting, WIth all these talk abt a spirit of Conquest, and abt all these MIracle catch.

WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO CONQUER???

the world?? how ??? and whats all these abt being a couple?? i serously believe that you dont go out to the streets and pounch on unsuspecting passer-bys and believe to "conquer them". Den how ?? First of all you need to conquer yourself. how to conquer myself? you ned to first let God Conquer you. Die to yourself that you may gain life abundantly next you need you conquer your 12, (of course find them first la..) den after taht conquer the world. how to get a spirit of conquest ???

6 Principles to apply for G12
1)Work Together as a couple- if u still single den prya for Him/ Her la!
2)Reproduce the vision to e nxt Generation- you are an example to them they will learn from you!
3)Form the G12- SO important, what more can i say ?
4)Do the vision the right way- Win Consolidate , Disciple , Send!!!!
5)Be willingto be uncomfortable,- dun get too comfortble lest we stumble and Fall,
6)Get God's Rhema WOrd for you. if you dont knwo what it is pray, if stil dunno gimme a call.. or drop me a email @ ug3nity@gmail.com, i will be more than happy to help you find out.

BTW pst eugene has Declared that it is now a season of Training, what is training ? training is now obedience only. It is following instructions correctly! so Lets Trust God and GO!!!!

Full of Shit

2006-04-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

Yup i'm full of shit now.. literally.
Ha a cuppa of milk dis morning and discovered that i'm lactise intolerant in the morning.
Realli a very PAINFUL lesson for me.. lol
so from now on, i can only drink black coffee in de mrning .. sighz....
sad sia...

uh-oh now go camp must be careful liao.. scali U sabo me.. den die la....

ouch.. The "Throne" beckons....

can hear the stomach tremble?
Can you feel the flushes Roar??
Just because i had some Milk,
now it will be my weakness.....

11days more to go..

2006-04-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

wow. i'm leaving in 11 days time.. will need to start packing now..
Stop Delaying!!!!
back to packing

Thanksgiving

2006-04-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

"I thank God for my new Hp"
"I thank God for Giving me money"
Don't we all just go throught the motions, of thanking God just because we were asked to ??
Are we thanking God for who he is or just what he blesses Us for ?
Like what PSt Melvin said on Sunday,
He who is full loathes honey,
but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.
Likewise, if we snack on what little satisfaction we get from Worldly Stuff ,
we miss out on the GREAT God we have.
But if we are Hungry for God and look out for God in all the small things and blessings that he provides us with, even the times where we have less new 'Worldly Blessings' we will still taste the Sweet Presence of God. I am also guilty of being so absorbed into the THING that God has blessed me with that sometimes i miss God altogether.

So Lets all look out for God in all the small things and HUNGER for him

when doing what is right is painful.

2006-03-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

AHH!!! my previous blog was abt to be published and gone.. sighz....
I just came back from the D&D last night. it hurts so much to say this but i went up to collect a XBOX 360.
but b4 dat, Before going i asked god to let me win BIG!!!!
so i went up. but the tix wasn't mine, it belong ed to someone else who had left to go some where else. so the tix had won i went up and they slowly eliminated the winners one by one.. sighz... it was so fun..
coming back i struggled in my spirit.
i could, NOT TELL and have it for myself.[but dat'll be wrong...]or TELL and give it to her....
so i went to a bible which thank god my cuz sent to me from aussie.. thank god for him. and i read titus 1:7 7 For the bishop must be blameless, as God's steward; not self-willed, not soon angry, no brawler, no striker, not greedy of filthy lucre; bishop refering to an overseer aka leader

it was not easy.. but in de end i called her and let her know...
[and i pleaded if i could have it...lolx] but Ultimately it was hers and up to her what she wanted to do with it. i realised that even with an 'easy' thing such as integrity, it is not always easy cos we are live in a corrupted world with degenerating values. by doing so, my mum scolded me saying i was 'too truthful' and made a silly decision but i know that god will honor his word and will bless me even more than what i can imagine. If God cant entrust a $500 thingin my hands how am i to ask god for more???

ouch. it is in such time of pain that god uses to build up my charcter, it is sigh.. so near yet so far. but it is God's PLan. even as i entrust e issue into God's hand i believe that my God is an awesome God, and that he will bless me. So i asked god to bless and amaze me, and i being the abit more da-dan, i asked gOD to bless me before i leave 4 china on 16 April. and i will update you of God's blessing on me.

However, i THANK GOd that i won %50 U2 bouchers and a pair of GV tix.. lolxx.

Super Unglam....

2006-03-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

hahaha just finished a meeting on my Sol3 proj..
So many things so little time.
SO many plans unfulfilled, too many dreams.
But ONE dream is all i need,
ONE plan and One goal.
that is to serve my God,

Reflection.
I need to concentrate on what i NEED to do rather tahn what is Urgent.
Also i want to IMPACT the lifes placed in my hands.I have come to a point where i have realised that it is not my plans anymore. But God's.

Also, I have also realised taht sometime, people hurt and dissapoint you. But it is In god that i find my love and from him I draw my Strength.

2006-03-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

Finally got my com reformatted today... crazy day today, whole body is sore and pain due to e immense amt of lactic acids built up in ma body. went to work out these few days.. wahaha
went to see me grandma today, she's still having a sore feet, and its not realli, good, i keep asking her to come to church but she keeps rejectin ...
But i thank god that she sponsored some of my vaccination costs... Thank God for her.

Later i went over to meet E&M's 12 for an afternoon of fun. whoah..s o tired la..
best of all evan told me beach to play frisbee. And lo and behold i was the only one wearing slipper la... lol

Not a very good week dis week. sigh... my dad is SUCH A PAIN!!!!
gtg.

Stoked

2006-03-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

was just browsing thru the blogs, and i came across one from Mr teck hong, it was very insightful. just last sunday, a pastor challenged the youth from our church to do something across 3mths =12 weeks, being the High I i am, i instantly accepted. not long after that doubts came into my mind. What if ..... but you only have 1 mth more!
doubts that just were coming in the way and discouraging me.
so i will get teh thing done before i go off to china in aApril 17th... so gambatte!!!!!
G12 conference pics
http://www.flickr.com/photos/58325939@N00/sets/72057594087466461/show/

Shout of VIctory !!!!

2006-03-20T09:27:00.000+08:00

conquerers in Christ, thats why we've been called to be,
and it comes as no coincidence dat my pastor is Pst Seng Lee, which literally victorious.
So i really thank god for that, this week has been a really good week, of healing and restoration of my soul, one might even mistake this for a emotional high.
but it is not. it is a renewed uplifting of my spirit.
have no time to write more... have so much work to do for God.

Test

2006-03-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

testing to see if i can see...

pics

2006-03-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

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Flash Slideshow

Just some pics of my DnD with me. Didn't drink much FYI. Had quite a gd time with mah frens..
also my new skin.. so pls advice..ENjoy!

Fishies

2006-03-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

amazing!!!!!
new meaning to keeper of fishes

Clubbin + Magic = no GO

2006-03-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

Lol.. had a fun time clubbin with the gals alst nite.. however drank a tat too much...
and tried to do some lame shit magic.. sorry pl ! i spoilt magic for you..

I'm BACK!!!!!!

2006-03-06T15:20:00.000+08:00

hahah thanx. ade 4 the reminder to update my blog. i just realised that it has been like a month since i last wrote..
aniwae, i'll be going to china for 3 months to do my attachement.
So i'm really excited and looking forward to it.. it will be an enriching and exciting journey for me...
and i will be blogging more over there.. provided there is internet excess over there.. lol. wahhaha
Have fun.

ITS A MIRACLE!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

MIRACLES.
ever since Sunday, when i confessed about my struggles, with my cell, I realised that my life is so FREE!!!!,
my grandma, she normally cooks to pray, so ever since i stood firm in not eating food offered to idols, she cooks and seperates it for me, with gd stuff like chicken thigh.
so wad happened on sun after i came home, i ate the non prayed food, and aafter some time, i realised that the food offered, went bad faster then the food not offered,.

Also, today,after like 1 weeek, i was actualli blessed by being able to reset my password...

Hallel Yaweh... Thank you SO much God!!!!
what have i done to deserve this ?!??!?!

Am i Stupid Too???

2006-02-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

Watched I not stupid 2 today.. was very funny.... It talks alot abt how the education cycle has turned vicious, and how everything goes in circles. How students are put down , resulting in their loss of faith in themselves, and then resulting in the teahcers thinking they are rotten.
And i see it and my heart goes out to those students.
but what REALLY touched my heart was when both child's fatehr took the fall for them.
So as not to spoil e show for you,
i shall just say that a father's love remains,
so much so that he is willing to sacrifice for you.
Sounds familiar?
yes. Just like the way God sent his son,
to die on the cross for us.
I dunno what is jack neos religgious standing,
but this is one show that is highly reccomended.
It doesn't take a christian writer like C.S.lewis.
to acknowledge the fathers love.
I pray that this show will sow a seed into the hearts of many to show the fathers. love.
bring ur friend to the show.
Use a non-christian show to show them the fathers love......

Babyface 04 Feb nite

2006-02-05T11:43:00.000+08:00

learnt alot last night had alot of fun also la... but it was expensive fun.
Went to chiong at One fullerton.At the R&B nite. But it also thought me things....

I drank abit too much but still managed to get home raterh sober ....
I heard from my frens dat i let loose la... lol
and it hit me, I mean HIT.
More than when i was sober.
As you should know dance is a form of worship.
In church during worship, do you dance?
Do you worship as much as when you pay $$$ to go to a club?
Do you need the influence of alcohol to dance?
Thats when i realised...
In church we sing,'i know my god saved the day and i noe his word never changes'

but do we dance like we realli mean it ???

i like to chiong ah but not as much as i love to worship God.

PBL -Problem Based Living

2006-02-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

Living life on the edge,
and literally, i have no idea what i'll be doing if not for God,
My father is going thru a rough patch (if u get wad i mean.),
and I have so many different battles to fight,
I mean i have met so many people who are just amazed how i still function like a normal Human Being after so much crap.

God.
everyday can be lived as a new day.

Throughout this blog, i have stumbled a few times and stopped just to lick my wounds.
i didn't realised that as i was writing my book of lamentations, i was holding up a whole grp of RUNners behind me.
Some helping me to get up,
Some blocked by me.

So as much as i would LOVE to whine and complain about the horrendous pace of my Projects. I thank God, that i'm alive today, to receive the endless Problems i live with.

in fact i will even thank God for the problems and hope that he can teach me more through them.

Imagine a world without problems, is it bliss???

No.
No inventors would ever be needed, doctors will go out of business.
IT WILL BE BORING....

btw if u have PBLs, thank God for it.
At least it shows that you are still alive and God trusts you to handle the Problems.

Insanity

2006-02-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Going Mad , Deviation from the True Mean

After reading somany books, i left myself seriously pondering . waht is my true purpose in Life?
i was halted in my tracks during my self discoery tiem, and i'm now seriously confused, where am i ? why was i reading so many things?
I was doing too many things at one go.
I Want a life that is consecrated and concentrated,
Though i have stumbled and fallen, i will pick myself upa nd run the race.

Yes it hurts alot, but i cant lick my wounds anymore.
does one want to eat his own vomit ?
wake up, smell the air,
it is not filled with niceties, but with destruction such is the sad and decaying world we live in..........

Vomited.

CHU 1

2006-01-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

wow finally CNY is here, after so many days of prep and lotsa last minute shopping,
ya..
was very happi after i won 4 tai at mahjong very shiok..
so i realli wish u happi new year, nd may the blessings from above fill your house and family.

Day 8 &9

2006-01-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

In day 8 i learnt that i was made for God's Pleasure . SO how can i make GOd happy???
besides worshipping, i realized that i need to worship god through my daily life and the gifts that he has given me. So they how then shall i live??? i realize that i need to practise more of my "gift" as well as in day 9 i learn how to thank god 4 hu i am rather than grumble abt the gifts i dont have.

AS much as this has been fun, i also am going to start a new magic thingy to get magicians to come and just do magic for fun, but only if they do magic.
not just a trick.
ok... i gtg liao.

back to naruto!!!!!!

lessons learnt today

2006-01-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

wow, today felt alot of things from GOd,
1. $$$ have to save it by being punctual or else will go into a vicious poverty cycle.
2. Need to be punctual , disciplined.
3. need to sow more seed by availing more $$$
as you can see its a cycle.

Punctual=>no taxi=>more $$$=>can save and spend wisely,
also intedn to save on my ating, no more gluttony for me...
sighz..
also need to excercise..

wahaha such exciting times!!!!!

Day 7

2006-01-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

I've been trying to Live This life, TOday i REALLY STRUGGLED Alot, but thank god! i've made it.

TOdday was a realli exciting day because for e first time in a long while, i actualli woke up @ 6am to pray b4 goign to school.
So i managed to pray for like 40 mins before i had to go to school, had alot of unnecessary disuruptions. sighz, so managed to talk to god on the way tto school, lost alot of my cool later in teh day not enuff sleep, and ended havin a realli foul word on my mouth the whole day.

SIghz, so i'm backa dn starting to actualli do dumbbells, Gotta work out manz... get fit for GOD!!!!

ok realli very shagged alreadi pls be praying for me as well, feel a cold acoming....

Thanks...

Days 4, 5 and 6

2006-01-13T06:41:00.000+08:00

wow, haven't been blogginga s regualrly as i would love to. and getting quite messed up cos forget where i stopped, but here goes.
Day 4
Made to last forever,
Having known that i'm meant to last forever, How then should i live ?
I need to work harder on my school, and i need to stop slacking .
Focus more on the unseen than the seen. aka spiritual vs physical.

Day 5 seeing my life from God's View.
now that i know god tests ppl, how then should i live?
i need to be good stewards of what i have , eg: my cell group, my studies, my $$$, my family. everything... my room,...
alll need to be taken good care of until the next coming of Jesus.

Day 6.Life is a temporary assignment.
as you can see most of these days are qte the same, so its overlapping abit
so this day i felt was qte like day 4 to focus more on spiritual life, vs Physical.

Day 7
The reason for everything.
Where in my daily routine can i see god's glory.

I need a routine to begin with, i'm very afraid of being too rountine, but i need to organize my life and overcoem this fear. so i'm now gointo pray after this and make it a rountine, to grow closer to god. Bye!

Day 3

2006-01-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

Have you ever read a book and u think, "Thats me !!!"
yup that was happened on the 3rd day doing the book, although it has been quite inconsistent, but i've been takingmy time to do the book.
I realized that i'm driven by a need of approval and materialism unknowingly, while i knew about the approval thingy, and have been trying to change that part of me. But the materialism thingy was der but blur. I realized that i need to live for God, likewise, it plays in to Pst senglee's message for us on Sunday about the Sin of I... Selfcentred. ok now i gtg will blogg more abt it if got time.

other stuff

2006-01-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

so other revelations that have happened today.
I need to personify the values that i value so much.
and i need to Study hard, and i mean realli STUDY.
Punctuality is also very important.
so i need to realli be punctual from now onwards....
yeah!!!!

dunno wat else to say....
bye

Day 2

2006-01-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

went through the book. realli interesting I struggled alot with the Words, i was made so that God could express his love . so i was thinking and i found that why would he want to do dat for me ? so much so that he had to send his son for me ? God would stillbe God without me.
realli didnt understand until i was praying for my guys, and i realised that i'm like a tool of god, to share HIS love to others.

Also
yesterday i said i didn't know how to remind myself?
i know how, ask myself before i do anything, is it for me ? or for gOd ?
wahaha

Day 1

2006-01-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

Day 1
The Thing that realli struck me and til now i've been unable to answer
was when it said taht how can i remind myself that life is about living for God and about me.
so how ? of course all the text book answer all came out, how to eternalize it and makeit come out from within, but deep down i realized that i have ben realli living for mself,
make yourself comfortable, live life to e fullest, they have all been just about me.

So now, How can i remind myself? i've realised that until i learn how to do it, i cant live my life totalli for God, so i decided, to live out the quote, Let God increase and Me decrease, by making prayer a habit.

SO that it will not remind me but MAKE me live a miraculous life for HIM.

40 days of The purpose Driven Life

2006-01-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

Finally after 3 days of searching high and low for the Book, i've finally gotten it! wahaha ok.. this is so cool, for the next 40 days i'll be bloggin in for the book, and my reflections, and self application questions...

Will i Be a New Me?
How then shall i Live?

Make my life a miracle!!!!

Dissapointed

2006-01-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

Feeling so sad and angry with my self, so far i've failed all my subs including the realli esai ones, so much so that my teacher was surprised and said that she was shocked!
Worse if all, i scored the worse in the whole conhord,
i'[m realli angry must start studying tonight, enmbaressed and angry.
what has ahappened to me ?!?!!??!?

Studying.

The greatest hindrance to my ministry

2006-01-01T04:14:00.000+08:00

Learnt alot today, talked to evan, so i decided that i need to...

work on my punctuality,
Spend more time with my guys
and spend more time with god.

so i've decided to go and buy myself this book. entitled the purpose driven life by rick warren.
for the next 40 days, i'll be on a quest to clean up my life and learn why am i on earth for and at the same time take stock and evaluate my last 20yr on earth.yea.. i'll be commenting on it also in my days ahead . might be doing a fast as well.. but have to see how..

so after that i went down to the magic box and went for the watchnight service thingy. and i learnt that in this new yr, i neeed to sacrifice the things of comfort to see the supernatural . no idea what that means yet, but i'm willing. also i need to be a living sacrifice. all these in the first 15 minutes of 2006. wah/...

so whta have i brought home ? i decided there and then i wanted to rededicate mylife to god, to renew my covenant to him. and there i built an altar to his name. and realized my life would never be the same.

so the nightmare is over... and it'll be time for me to change the skin soon... wahaha
seeya soon!

happi but dry

2005-12-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

i've just came back from a 3d2n stay at rasa sentosa. but am i happy ? no. i feel miserable. why i dunno whyi feel so.
i feel quite tired. of how i try so hard but they remain .and how they want to get so much but give so little. wat onearth! i dunno anymore feel spent and dried up like a lil ikan bilis. dry and shriveled up waitin to go into the soup.

Tua pek...

2005-12-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

Congrats to my 5323 uncle...
i'ver never seen him so happy before...
so realli happy for him.
althought the weddin was abit hiccupy and funny
but wqas realli happi..
so gtg now.. *hic*

Present COUNT

2005-12-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

1. Ben and Jerry's Spoons frm Candice
2. G swatch watch frm Aunty Doris.
3. Aussino towel frm Mum
4. Black Watch from secret santa. 4got hu... sorri.
5. Timberland T frm Adrian
6. very much Liked Topman sweater frm G-nette
7. Zara long sleeve from... (you? )
8. Nautica T from jem.
9. Tim Hughes Cd frm Joey
10. Inuyasha Crads from joey also..
and last nut not least..
11. a chocolate beetle form isaac.. lol!!!
wahaha very happi...
thank you so much....

GOT BOX ?

2005-12-26T23:54:00.001+08:00

hahaha i haven't realli had a good sleep until today..
christmas eve was spent @ my unc's place.
with super bbq with succulent lobsters. and grilled scallops...
super yummy.
so i crazily went to christy's place after mudnite.
and ton there was very fun..
but very bad move..
cos after that had alot of magic shows which were v gd..
but i was pretty much wasted later duringservice..
and during the merchandising after that..
so i wreached home arnd 430..
so took a nap and overslept..
woke up round 8 SUPER late for sarahs plade. so went there and kena suan lo.. sighz.. every1 wore qte casual and i dress rather msartly. so sighz... adn they left super earli after eatig arnd 10... sighz...

but what have i learnt dis christmas?
well, i've learnt...
that i try to go for too many parties. and lose track of the important.
also. i've learnt that i need to organise more.

o ya.. might be sleeping thru the nye.. no place to go...
sigh... looking for reccomdenations.. as cheap as possible. qte broke...

so i wish you the very best this upcoming year ahead. and PLEASE! get ready for CNY!!! its end of JAN btw... GONGXI FACAI!!!! whahaa

The Nightmare

2005-12-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wow. havent realli slept for qte a while alreddi....
gonna do so later... i think.. i hope...
today was very pek chek... had irritating freshies being noisy when all the juniors were all stressed up... so it was irritating til we shouted at them la..
so after that went with my cousin to Bras Besar to Tec man to buy christmas prezzies... so der was so many things i wanted to buy but no $$$ so.. i decide to b thick skin...

and post my wish list here!!!
lol. wahaha..
so have a merry christmas.... and happy shopping !!1

had fun... thank you so much !!!

2005-12-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

the gang came over to my hse today had so much fun.. had chocolate fondue, pizza and mahjong.. had so much fun.. and abit tired.. so nitez!!!

THANK YOU!!!

Eugene, you're a Golden Retriever!

No bones about it, you're a popular, fun-loving Golden Retriever. Adored by all and too cool for school, you're extroverted and enthusiastic. Your magnetic personality makes you the life of any bash. Since you're a true people-dog, you genuinely love all kinds of social gatherings. Going to parties, dinners, and other shindigs is the best way to add faces to your constantly growing circle of friends. But besides being on the social A-list, you're a confident, well-rounded pup who's definitely something to bark about. Pretty accomplished at anything you set your mind to, your sunny nature and winning ways make you one of everyone's favorite dogs. Woof!

BYE.. see you again next year....

2005-12-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

my birthday is gone again just as quickly as it came..
it had been a really exciting day today.
i realli have no idea what will happen in e next yr ahead...
today was so fast and so happi.. for once i actualli enjoyed the normally BORING COM skills lesson...
den the family had a ok-ok dinner.. and we had chocolate fondue!!!
realli wanted to buy the warmer @ 48.80 but was realli too ex.. sigh.. see how if i can ge it... lol! *hint hint*
ok/... gtg now.. trying to clear the house again... sighz.....

One day at a time.

Happy birthday !!!!

2005-12-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

ahahha i'm so happy now !!!
I AM SO OLD!!!
i'm 20 ahh!!!!!!!!!!
the big 2-0... oh my..
wat have i done in my life that i can die and be proud of ?
dunno...
sighz..
my mum just gave me a prezzie.. new jeans!!! halleluia!!!
so happy!!1
it even came with a special surprise!!! the anti-theft tag!!!
the shoplady obviously forgot to take it out !!!
was laughing my head of.. wahhaaha
and most amazing was how my mum manage to get the jeans out !
lol...

so thank god for my living today...
it has always been to his glory

super hot!

2005-12-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

was making chilli padi sauce last night with mum.. and mum challenged joey to eat a spoonful. in exchange for an hr of com.. lol.. he gulped it down..
willing to do anything for com.. wahahah!!!!!

Happy

2005-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

Wow, had a realli fun time today, i've really felt the PEACE of the Lord today,
woke up qte late @ abt 10am,
so after that i ate and went down to the funeral, was there early,
i felt the peace because i knew the body in the coffin was but an empty shell,

After that i went to the the funeral service, i was amazed on what an impact uncle chin Min's life made, the hall over flowed with people that were touched and testified to his love for god.
at the service, there was a sinners prayer and we prayed, i could see uncle chin min's heart for the lost being there through jon.
(was also qte amazed @ how high tech the things were.)

The reason why i felt so happy today was that after dinenr i showed some magic to some friends.. some triks sucked... and some were veri cool.
but after that i met jerald, he was on his way back from expo.
i asked him to show my frens some magic, so he did, but what really touched my heart was how he loved serving the touch kidz ministry.

and i asked myself, where is your heart for magic ?
isit gone ?
no!
i can see god's hand on my life through the magic in my life.
and i pray that u will be a part of it.

Blessing....

2005-12-05T23:06:00.001+08:00

Was really blessed just now, as u wuld have read,
Jonathan lo's father Mr low Chin Min passed away,
i was at the wake just now.
At the funeral it just occurred to me, What you people say about me when i pass on ?

"Yesterday's gone lovely lord,
and tommorrow may never be mine,
so teach me today,
to live every day one day at a a time"

what will people say at your funeral ?

i was hitchinga ride with pastor eugene and julie, and pastor julie said something really wise, that hit me.
We learn so much more about people after they go, how nice would it be if we knew about it when they were still alive.

Appreciated the days you have,
i don't care if i had to rush like crazy again, or if i had to be stressed out and do last minute work, the fact that i'm alive and breathin again is good enough.

"It is well, it is well, with my soul"

Blessing....

2005-12-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Was really blest just now, as u wuld have read, Jonathan lo's father Mr low Chin Min passed away, i was at the wake just now.
At the funeral it just occurred to me, What you people say about me when i pass on ?

"Yesterday's gone lovely lord,
and tommorrow may never be mine,
so teach me today,
to live every day one day at a a time"
what will people say at your funeral ?

i was hitchinga ride with pastor euegen and julie, and pastor julie said something really wise, that hit me.
We learn so much more about people after they go, how nice would it be if we knew about it when they were still alive.

Appreciated the days, i don't care if i had to rush like crazy again, or if i had to be stressed out and do last minute work, the fact that i'm alive and breathin again is good enough.

"It is well, it is well, with my soul"

Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.

2005-12-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

hahaha found out that I have Automatonophobia... was quite freaked out by e dummy..
On lighter note, yesterday I went out with the gang for dinner.. it was quite late already 7 and I haven’t ate anything the whole day sighz.. my stomach was growling so loudly durin my quiz that my ah po was stifflin her laughter la..
so sian..
so we went down to suntec... and in the end we went for Carl’s JR!!!!
muahahaha ate like a pig la.. the onion rings were so huge !!!!
and there were actually onions in them !!! not some measly thing u get @ BKs..

wahz… so were drank like a lot of water I think dat as we chit chat ah, we went to e loo like 3 times???
4get liao… whoah.. the food was so gd…
And then we were tokin abt going overseas after grad, so we were thinking of ye shanghai, and one night in Beijing… wahahahah
But now no $$$$ so see how god provides k ?

Now e anticlimax

One of my cell members father has gone to the lord, he passed away of a myocardial infarction aka heart attack..
He passed away in Jakarta ona business trip..
Please be praying for the family, it’s not easy.
I hope that they can get in touch with their feelings soon.. dunno wad dat means oso..
Ok gtg rush down to EXPO for praying thingy liao.. bbb

Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.

2005-12-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

sorri havent realli been bloggin..

hahaha found out that I have Automatonophobia... was quite freaked out by e dummy..
On lighter note, yesterday I went out with the gang for dinner.. it was quite late already 7 and I haven’t ate anything the whole day sighz.. my stomach was growling so loudly durin my quiz that my ah po was stifflin her laughter la..
so sian..
so we went down to suntec... and in the end we went for Carl’s JR!!!!
muahahaha ate like a pig la.. the onion rings were so huge !!!!
and there were actually onions in them !!! not some measly thing u get @ BKs..

wahz… so were drank like a lot of water I think dat as we chit chat ah, we went to e loo like 3 times???
4get liao… whoah.. the food was so gd…
And then we were tokin abt going overseas after grad, so we were thinking of ye shanghai, and one night in Beijing… wahahahah
But now no $$$$ so see how god provides k ?

Now e anticlimax

One of my cell members father has gone to the lord, he passed away of a myocardial infarction aka heart attack..
He passed away in Jakarta ona business trip..
Please be praying for the family, it’s not easy.
I hope that they can get in touch with their feelings soon.. dunno wad dat means oso..
Ok gtg rush down to EXPO for praying thingy liao.. bbb

xXxdiexXx

2005-11-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

sighz..
had a terrible time today..
dunno what to write also..
hahaha today had a stressful but fun time..
today i made a silly mistake...
added a crucial ingredient at the end..
really wanted to kick myself in de ass for it la..
but in de end..
wen the bread cam out it was better as in volume and looks..
woot !!!
lol.. so tired.. he gave me so much crap..
must gp sleep liao.. nitz..

wahahaha

2005-11-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

woah.. feeling so stuffed now...
Just had a lab for a subject called FOod Service Management.
had
Thai tang hoon salad,
Clear Mushroom Soup,
Grilled chciken thigh seasoned with thyme
Butter rice,
Saut`ed green snap peas.
and fruit tart...
SO full now..

He found out abt my hp liao..
so...
sighz... dunno wad to do..
Yesterday was a realli crazy day.. i though i had to rush down to BM to help teach SMILE, but in de end NIg was teaching like 15 ppl ?
so dun think i'll be goigng down to day..
ok... i better get started on my HW, got class in 1 hrs time... lolx

memories.

2005-11-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

Trash
The last week has been a crazy time of trash talk,
when you're tired and stressed you start being crappy,
with the wazzup.. wahahaha... and WAAAAASHHHHH...fun and crazy...
but recently,
the suans have turned into hurtful words than failed to edify,
Hurtful words that just pull down and destroy.

Lifes accountable

was also something i failed to remember.
Revel 3:2-3
ouch... was realli convicted by god this morning when i was sleeping, i dreamt that i was prayed for, and oi fell, i felt god talking to me, and i FELT it, when i was sleeping, i was so shocked. how could i be possible that you feel......
How infinite is HIS wisdom

Her
She is a person whose name i should not speak of, or should i ?
i wrote to her telling her of her spoilt and tackless words.
but the most hurtful words must have been how misfirtunate i had been knowing her.
as much as i would like to let her know that i'm angry at her on one thing, she thinks i'm angry over spilt water.I feel bad that i should frogive her and apologise and stuff like that... but it has been 3 years of this.
how ? to apologize or not ?

you humiliated me infront of so many people over a condition i have no control over, i tolerated so many times when u whispered behind my back laughing about me. or when my jokes were not funni, or when i say things outa e blue. but you humiliated me infront of so many people and when u found it funny, you went to tell the others of the good joke. You have been told upteenth times of how were tactless and insensitive. we can try to forget the times you rejected people's presents because you didn't like them. or the times you scolded every1 because they dint wait for YOU.
but you should try to spare a thought for others.
well i hope she does see it and understand.

well, as much as i want to apologize, i feel that i've been unjustly treated and badli hurt. sigh.. i'm so scarred and bruised by her words. sigh...

1john4:
19We love because he first loved us.
20If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.

"God, please teache me how to love. That your glory can be seen in my life."

summore

2005-11-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

summore...
was teachin ,magic today... den went too far.. sighz.. was toking naresh just now told him how i sumtimes dint like too much christiany stuff and he looked very confused..
see i love god, I love jesus, but i dont put evangelism as a motive.. evangelism should be a lifestyle that happens.. not sumthing that is forced and superficial . but it should come from the heart... so dats why...
btw..
chritianity is not a religion it is a relationship.
it is about a person.. and GOD, and yes, all 3 of them, Ftaher , SOn, n Holy Spirit..

It's no Longer i that Liveth But CHRIST that liveth in me